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2011-08-25T01:17:00.001+08:00

even when i really need someone, u cant even put ur friends aside.

2011-08-25T00:17:00.001+08:00

Sorry, its my paranoia acting up I guess.

2011-08-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

so STRESSED.

guess i wont be updating this blog anymore.
things between us have changed drastically.
dont get why sometimes when i want attention from u, u dont give it to me.
and yet u give it to me when its unwanted.
cant even kid ard with u anymore.
take care in china.

2011-08-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hey there, I'm so sorry for the lack of updates. Haven't really got the opportunity to come online. So, do you mean that you don't feel loved by me at all on normal occasions? HAHA! Just teasing you. ;) And I missed you sayang-ing me too! <3

12 more days. :(

2011-08-17T20:24:00.001+08:00

I MISS UR HUGS !!!!!!!!!!! :(

2011-08-17T19:51:00.001+08:00

WHY U NO UPDATE THE BLOG !!??

i feel so loved, that u came down that day when i was crying.
thanks .. :)

2011-08-15T10:35:00.002+08:00

im so tired ..
i just wanna give up and let things go.
its just too much ..
:'(

2011-08-11T22:16:00.004+08:00

Wonder what you're doing at this moment right now. Probably out with friends I guess. Not talking to you suddenly is really torturing I swear, but guess I'm at fault for not being sensitive to your feelings. That was my mistake and this is my punishment? Can't seem to get you out of my mind, images of you keep appearing and I wonder why. Sigh, you probably not gonna visit this page anymore. From the bottom of my heart, I really missed you. Not just your physical self, but everything about you. You scent, face, eyes, voice, hair and everything else. I remembered you once tell me that I've never showed you the vulnerable side of me, well here I am. It feels like I'm falling onto my knees, everything seems like a torment seriously. I feel like crying, but it seems like my tear ducts are not functioning. Sincerely wish you're happier now. :')

"Now I take solace in the fact that you once showered me with love, something I haven't felt for a while. Reminiscing the days where you were once mine warms my heart and ease my pain."

2011-08-11T13:53:00.001+08:00

Sigh. :'(

2011-08-10T18:11:00.003+08:00

That's why I said sorry. I'm always around if you need me. In case you don't remember, I still love you the same as before.

2011-08-10T17:43:00.002+08:00

its not that i find u a nuisance or what.
i just want u to stop chiding me. :(
of all pple, i know. and u shld know how im feeling, what im doing.
why wud i mind u caring abt me.
sigh .. :'(

R.

2011-08-10T13:08:00.002+08:00

I get it, I totally do. I'm sorry that you have to repeat yourself every single time. I'll never say a single thing anymore. Just so you know, I'm always ready to help you with anything. Gimme a call or text if there is a need to alright?

2011-08-10T11:48:00.002+08:00

i get what u mean. when u say u feel helpless when u see me upset.
i know u'd rather i be happy.
but pls understand me when i say its not me who wants this.
i've said it a ton of time - given a choice i wudn't wanna think abt this too.
having a personality and character like mine, being a ball of sunshine brightening up pple's day, OF COURSE i'm supposed to be happy.
but as i've said when i'm down, i'm really down.
to admit that its my fault for letting him go, and that he's not gonna come back to me, is accepting the truth and reality.
its just that i have trouble moving on.
i'm trying. i really trying.
but if u can't see it, or if this isn't gd enough for u,
then FUCK IT.
cos i'm done trying to explain myself to u.
its basically just the same thing over and over and over again.
if u're not tired of hearing me explain myself,
then i'm tired of explaining myself to u.
sometimes my doodles are a way to escape from things ..

R.

2011-08-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

Hello, finally home from work. Pfft, guess you're still at your Gf's house eh. Hope you're feeling at least a little better by now, at least. Been feeling very anguish by the fact that you're bothered by dreams every single night and you being upset everytime you think about him or whatever. However, I am just as helpless as you are. And this "helpless-ness" gets on my nerves too. But well, just so you know. I am already ready to listen or help you out in anyway I can ah. Just want you to know you still hold a special place in my heart eh. But well, not expecting anything in return from you as well. Guess that statement I made was always true, I treat you better like this than when you're my girlfriend. Oh well. Gna pray that you'd be happy every single day! ;) <3

By the way. "B C D F G I J K L M N O P Q S T U V W X Y Z", what did I miss?!

(sorry for being so cliche :P)

2011-08-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

no reason ah. just thot it looks cute ??
:)
freaking dying at work already.

2011-08-07T04:10:00.003+08:00

Wait, I'm one last thing. What's with the picture eh? HAHAHA. ;D

2011-08-07T04:07:00.002+08:00

Woah, smart girl. Well, I'd like you to be there of course. But well, we shall see again k. And I'm home safely, and the only "merlion" is Elsen, muahahaha. K la, time to shower and gna "toh-nation". Goodnight darling, Love you as always.

- Berry the "XIAO DIDI"

2011-08-06T23:44:00.001+08:00

MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
now it HAS the time already. :D
SO SMART OF ME !!

2011-08-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

just realized something.
why doesnt this blogskin display the damn TIME !!??
how to see when u post something ??!!
zzzzzzzz

2011-08-06T22:42:00.003+08:00

this one's for you & me.
living out our dreams ..

i know im gonna miss u.
like u said, 25 more days. :(
contemplating if i shld see u off.
sigh ..

have fun with elsen & reira !! :)

<3 thegreekGODDESS.

2011-08-05T13:54:00.001+08:00

When did I ever ignore you ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh? ;)

2011-08-04T17:21:00.001+08:00

I'm soooooooooooooooooooo BORED.

someone is ignoring me. :(

:)

2011-08-04T12:05:00.000+08:00

Of course i like it la. Its done by my special girl afterall! <3 !

2011-08-04T09:56:00.000+08:00

finally DONE !! :D

hope you like it. hee. :)
tho its so boring, cos its one of the defaults by blogger. zzz
lemme find some time to go and edit something nice k !!

<3 R.