i get what u mean. when u say u feel helpless when u see me upset.
i know u'd rather i be happy.
but pls understand me when i say its not me who wants this.
i've said it a ton of time - given a choice i wudn't wanna think abt this too.
having a personality and character like mine, being a ball of sunshine brightening up pple's day, OF COURSE i'm supposed to be happy.
but as i've said when i'm down, i'm really down.
to admit that its my fault for letting him go, and that he's not gonna come back to me, is accepting the truth and reality.
its just that i have trouble moving on.
i'm trying. i really trying.
but if u can't see it, or if this isn't gd enough for u,
then FUCK IT.
cos i'm done trying to explain myself to u.
its basically just the same thing over and over and over again.
if u're not tired of hearing me explain myself,
then i'm tired of explaining myself to u.
sometimes my doodles are a way to escape from things ..

R.